The amount of disappointment and frustration I’m feeling right now makes me want to slit my wrists. I need you to go away. Why do you keep fucking everything up for me?
+I feel so fucking insignificant to everyone in my entire life. Why do I never come first? Fucking ever? I don’t want to be here anymore.
++I was lonely.
I liked how your jaw bone moaned after each swallow of stolen alcohol,
the way your shoulder smelled like nicotine and bleached self esteem,
when you whispered circular lies into my lopsided eyes.
You were… a pleasant surprise.



